Woke up several of times,
Gastric hurts like fcuk.
Still keep in silent.


Eaten gastric pills.Eaten medicine.
Eat abit,and drink lots of water.

Saw him,flashback that cause my headache.
Screaming,cried at a corner with no one at home,no one came to help.
Planning to go East Coast alone today.
That's all i can do now.
I feel veryvery cold,weak now,shivering while typing.
Cherish my this post okay! I have a hard time typing it out.
The mirror reflects, is not me anymore.


Where's my boyfriend?
I miss him..
I need him..
But am i forbidden to?

Basically,today went to Malaysia with a big headache.
Reach there,shop around.
But until there vomited,terribly.
See doctor. Still feeling terrible.
No appetite to eat at all.

Have not eat yet. Guess i will just sleep it away.



I've not okay,inside or outside.
Feel like dying,what's the purpose of living.
I'm forgotten,
invisible,
thrown aside like a toy.
Nobody needs me,all alone.
Family getting not very well.

Totally stress.
Where are the promises.
Why am i sad now,

也许我忘了怎么笑.
Maybe this world can forget me.
Maybe you can forget me.

Every single relationship,
is never been the same,except for one thing with the guys.
Pride.

Is Pride that important that you can hurt other people?
Even yourself.

Pride is the enemy,
Pride is what made you lost everything.
& you're letting it in.

Same hurts from pride.
Belinda.
I know guys are like this.
But then am i the one to be in fault for their pride?

That's are all excuses.
Take off your Pride mask.

It's hurtful,hurting.

Hmmm,nothing much to post today,
Got abit of sore throat :D

But nevermind (: I love the overnight with the girls!
It was totally awesome,we talk till 6.00 am in the morning.
And watch The Notebook,i did cry! Gosh the movie is touching.

True love is when you shed a tear and still want him.
It's when he ignores you and you still love him.
When he loves another and you still say you're happy for him.
And all you do is cry..and cry.

At the moments,at belinda's house.
Feeling super down, i don't even know if we should be complicated.


Am i giving too much .
Going to watch the notebook,guess i must cry tonight.

I guess,i can't give myself another second chance anymore.

Today,

Nothing much.
Went Tenmile junction with Mum.
It was long time since i go there.
Have a talk with mum. Damn funny,and nice talk.

Tomorrow going to belinda's house to overnight. @^&@$$%*%$@*(
FINALLY! I've been craving this day to come.
Then went to find boyfriend at bukit panjang cc.
Watch them play basketball.
BASKETBALL IS NOT NETBALL. LOL
Boyfriend keep calling me to play.

Wthhhh,i'm seriously can't wait for tomorrow!
ARGH.

Tomorrow most probably will talk to them,
Every single thing. Even we have to cry,
Even we have to hug each other to cry,
Even we cry to sleep.
We 3 will be the same.

Will try make things right .
Last try Serene,last try.

Sometimes,caring too much is a advantage.
This is how i am,
Say don't care don't care,but i'm just trying to ignore,i care alot.
Just that caring too much,and hurts come.
And the person don't appreciate at all.


Where did the selfless girl gone to?
I'm don't know if she knows the way back home,
I'm not sure if she's gonna return or not.
But i might guide her home if she changes her mind .

But she still don't want change,even she say she will.
She not moving,not making any efforts.
She don't move,i can't go.

Yesterday was terribly tiring!
Look at the time,i just wake up not long ago!

Zzzz still tired.
Now waiting brother & his girlfriend to go down for
breakfast?


And i have a bloody running nose.
& brother still telling me to go bukit timah to play pool.
But i anything. But don't feel like going anymore.

I can't wait to stayyy overnight at belinda's housee
I'm quite bussyy.
Monday still need go back school to pay locker fees
Zzzzz. I dono should go or not,don't go also later got people take.
Another thing is alpha camp,have NO idea should go or not.
Parents have not been informed,money not paid.
Not prepared.


On friday,i woke up at 9am.
Went prepared,and i was quite late.
But someone is even late than me :D
Went to Segar to meet boyfriend.
Go to pending to meet others,
Took 963 go HarbourFront. Went to eat Mac,
Then went to Sentosa Solioso beach
I don't know what to do,cause the lousy organizer was Weiqiang
LOL. Girls wanted swim/play. I don't havee any extra clothes ,
Then the boys wanted to cycle/roller blade.
-.- Then both i also cannot,roller blade i can,but
Too many slope and the road is too rough.

So at last they want to cycle,
I don't know why Boyfriend don't want to choose the couple bicycle.
So he just cycle me around :D
But i was still nervous and scared okayy.
Everytime he turn/cycle with one hand . My heartbeat go OMG.
LOL. Then yesterday on phone he keep calling me to learn how to cycle.

Then it started to rain,went to shelter.
Slack , play Taptap with boyfriend.
I won :D After that play at beach awhile
Then went vivo with boyfriend first.
Slack around then after that meet others.

Went for dinner,and weiqiang damn funny luh -.-
Ask skypark at where.
Then after going Skypark we went home.
Boyfriend sent me home.
Love him.
He very take good care of me kay! Belinda! :D

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Hahah. Yesterday i woke up at 7.00am
Went to prepared ,was tired. Because the day before i went to
Sentosa to accompany boyfriend.
And it was pain here,and there.

Went to meet Kunda & Weili at Mac then went to long john to eat.
Eat liao then went to buyy Caramel Frappuccino . Gosh i'm in love.
Went to school,reach liao saw quite a people wanted to go in,but can't.
Goes in to library to prepare.
The 3D de chemical thingy damn smelly la!

And then boyfriend wake up? LOL
Parents started coming in,then play with them.
Some parents are like very what luh.
Then some parents are very good at chemistry trying to
ACT smart infront of us. -.-

So pekchek. Then i got stomach cramp too.
Then weili went for F&N & Kang jie came. Thanks to her & Desmond
For the pancakes :D

LOLs,went to accompany kunda to fetch his cousins.
Walk around,then went back to library again.

Damn tired already, Me and Kang jie went to wash the beakers.
Hahah,damn funny,but damn sad also when he askes my questions
that i never think before at all.

Went back to play with physics booth, IT WAS SO MAGIC.
LOL it make me fall in love with physic. Now i'm sneezing non stop.
After that,packup,took LRT with Kang jie.
Went to boyfriend's house,his father was in :O
Slack awhile until 7pm then went home
Eat chicken cutlet(L!)
Then went home. :D